NADIA
Even though I haven't been accepted in this pack yet, I still enjoy it more than the life I have been living since I ran away from my pack.
Yes, I haven't been here for days and all but for the few hours I've stayed here, I knew that I never want to go back to my life as a rogue.
Like as a pack member is so easy and peaceful. Almost unbelievable, if you ask me. You get to eat what you want, whatever you want. You get to go out for a run without being terrified of what you might meet on your way. You don't have to hunt for food. All you need to do is go to a supermarket to get whatever you want to eat.
If I am accepted into this pack, I wouldn't have to be scared of getting kidnapped by human werewolf hunters. Scared of getting attacked by other rogues. Scared of getting killed by pack member. Scared of getting attacked by animals and the worst one is being scared of getting rape. The man who also ruined my life would be far away from getting his hands on me, especially if I become the Luna. If I should get comfortable with that life, that I wouldn't want to go back to my old life filled with dangerous things and people.
If he found his mate, there is a high chance that whatever he feels for me would immediately be flushed down the toilet. I don't want that thing to happen to me, especially if he already imprinted on me. It would be like another heartbreak all over and I know it would even be worst than when Asher rejected me because I would already have a full blown bond with him and we would have to break it by force.
I would be forced to feel ten times the pain of both he and Asher's rejection and heaven knows I wouldn't be able to survive it.
"That is impossible," he states with so much confidence and assurance that it makes me wonder if there is a story I am missing.
He sounded so sure that it felt like there is a hidden meaning to it.
"Why do you sound so sure?"
"It is just impossible for me to meet my mate, Nadia. I am extremely sure that I can't find her. You can just let that topic go. It's impossible."
Definitely, there is something he isn't telling me again. I don't understand why he feels the need to hide things from me. We are going to be partners yet, he refuses to tell me a lot of things without me pressuring him.
It makes me skeptical. I feel like I can't trust him filly since he refuses to trust me.
"Have you met her before? Why are you so positive that you can't find your mate?"
He smiles gently before he replies. "Because I have met her already."
I gasp, placing my hands on my chest in shock. "Don't tell me it's what I am thinking. Are you cheating on her?"
He laughed at my reaction, his shoulders vibrating as he does so. His uncanny resemblance to Asher is once again brought to my notice.
The only obvious thing that they don't have in common is the attitude. They even have mutual hatred for each other.
"No, Nadia. I am not cheating on her. Only a fo would chest on his or her mate." He says, still chuckling in amusement.
"Then what happened? Why are you not with her?"
All the humor drains from his face and he looks like he just got punched in the gut.
"Did she reject you?" I ask again, wondering what stupid woman would reject a man as great as Maxwell.
"It would have been much better if she rejected me. She died."
"Oh my goodness," I exclaimed, covering my mouth with myself hands. "What happened to her?"
"She was killed by Asher's warriors. When he found out that I had found my mate and would most likely come back to the pack to take my position back, he sent his mate to kill her. It almost killed me, Nadia. I was not myself for a year. He didn't want me to come back so he took the only ticket I had back into this pack."
Shit! That is fucked up. Asher is even more heartless than I thought he is. I should stay away from him for my own safety.
I don't think I have ever met someone as vile as he is.
But, doesn't that mean that automatically, I and Maxwell are danger?
Mayne not Max since for whatever reason, he doesn't want to kill me.
"Call me selfish but that is the major reason I chose you as the person I want to spend the rest of my life with. You are his mate, wether he likes to admit it or not. Even if the bond gets broken, his wolf would never allow him to kill you. You are the only female invisible to his wickedness. I chose you for that reason because I knew that with you, I would surely get back my position."
Oh, I get it. Maxwell is only using me to get what he wants.
I should be angry at that news but that would only make me hypocritical. I was only using him too…at least, at the beginning. I was using him to make Asher jealous enough to want me back before everything went south.
I cants even find it in me to be mad at him for using me because I would have done the same. I would have even done worst of I was in his shoe.
One question keeps bugging my mind and I don't hesitate to voice my thoughts out. "Does that mean that I am only good for only until I am useful? What would you do to me what I no longer become of use to you and your ambition?"