If only you knew how you changed my whole life with your blinding and warming presence,
Maybe I wouldn't have wasted my time overthinking on the what-ifs and instead spent more time with you.
Fate is cruel, isn't it?
Just when I was stuck in the darkest point of my life,
When I thought that no source of light can shine upon it no matter how bright,
Fate brought you to me,
Our destinies intertwined,
Our threads woven seamlessly together,
And just when I thought I was about to get better, that some things are worth living for after all,
Just when I had someone to rely on, someone to trust, someone to confide in,
Fate snatched you away from me as if you weren't meant to live in this world at all.
As if you shouldn't exist at all.
If Fate was a person, I would have already pummeled them, screamed at them, demanded them.
Why did they take such a gentle, compassionate, and loving soul away from me?
The only person to have changed my life in ways that I could have never imagined.
You painted my dull and colorless life with vivid colors,
You showed me that even the small things can be beautiful,
You opened my eyes to a world I have never considered seeing,
You taught me that I don't have to act tough all the time,
That it's alright if I am vulnerable and gullible,
Because I know that you will still accept me regardless,
And that showing vulnerability isn't a sign of weakness,
It just means you're human.
And honestly that's fine.
Because that's how humans are, they act like they're strong but they really aren't.
You made me believe that if there was anyone in the world who would be at my side till the end of the world no matter what,
It would be you, holding such a steady and firm faith in me.
You gave me hope that you will be there with me to face the world together,
Just with you staying by my side is enough to strengthen me.
I won't have to keep up a facade, just by knowing that you're there.
There's no need to,
Because you effortlessly cracked my walls open.
You will be there to welcome me with that fragile but big heart of yours.
I'm back to being lonely, just like how I was before.
And it would have been bearable if I hadn't met or known you at all.
Because knowing that such a wonderful person exists in a world where injustice and cruelty is the norm,
Makes me feel terrible and horribly empty.
And I could only ask myself over and over–
Why did you have to leave me so early in this cold and ruthless world?