I was finally trapped in a square shaped,all white room which had a dark screen by the side.
i was sitting on one of the chairs which stood on the sides of the grey square shaped table.
A lady came in and headed towards my direction.
she wore a black suit which had only one button on its top.A white shirt was beneath the suit.
'evening,so tell me as young as you are,so immature.with absolutely no clue about anything or how cruel the world actually is.tell me how on earth is a twelve year old so heartless,so devious.i cant seem to comprehend what all this is about.im lost,I'm worried and as a woman,a mother I am more than concerned
'she said whilst I sat on the black,completely uncomfortable chair,which had space by my buttocks.I did not reply to her at all,simply because my brain was fully occupied.
'listen!'she screamed at me while taking the opposite chair to sit on.'you need to tell me exactly what happened,you have to give me full details of the event,I refuse to believe that there isn't more to it.i am devastated just by thinking of this whole scenario,no words could explain what I saw'she continued.
'im gonna tell you this one time,one time only.the is no going back.you are stuck here ,you are stuck with me there is no one to save you,from your filthy,stone hearted ass.There is no way any one would sympathise with you,at this very moment you are indeed a monster'
She grabbed me, over the table and straight to her face,she screamed while spit came from her mouth.she had red lipstick on which was now all over her face because she kept on clearing her face.i was not frightened by her or her words.i was not even caring about what was happening.
'answer me,talk,tell me why .don't just sit there and act innocent as if you are such a sweet soul whilst you are a total creep.whats wrong with you,you are crazy?where do you get all this energy,power.There is definitely something more to it.your thoughts,your behaviour,you are definitely danger to the society.'she continued to insult me in an unprofessional manner.
I gazed at her,I looked straight in to her eyes,I could feel her soul coming to me but she pulled back then came back to slap me.that is when her colleagues came to take her out.i was not planning on engaging after all I was already in big trouble.
They left me for the whole 12 hours and the whole time I was not sleepy.The whole time I sat there constantly thinking about what had just happened.i couldn't rap my head around it.its all seemed foggy.
One thing I knew was that I was very scared,too much scared.i could feel my legs shaking as if I had ran a marathon.i was sweating profusely.my heart was pounding my muscles were tired.i was drained so hard that I couldn't speak.i felt like even if I was able to speak I would be delusional to assume that they would actually believe a word I would say to them.
They were sure that I was the problem.They were satisfied with me being a criminal,they no longer saw the innocence in me as much as they constantly claimed that they did.i knew that the turn of events was nothing compared to what had happened at my younger stages.
Everyone was worried about me,my family ,my teachers ,everyone.but it's was not in a good way.i felt like they were worried about their own safety.but it's wasn't my fault none of it was.all I wanted was for me to enjoy my childhood,all I wanted was to make friends.
I wanted people to play with too.i wanted friends to share my feelings with.probably dress up in the same attires.i wanted to be childish so bad that I even started hating on other kids who were childish.i would normally observe them so that I could see how did they do it.how did they managed to be careless free no matter what.
All the kids my age they wore anything without anyone critizing them.They talked which ever way they liked, sometimes they would even imitate animals and no one would care.They cried when they wanted to and I could never bring myself to cry.its like I had no emotions at all.i was just a heartless monster like they described me.
I was lonely all the time,I had no friends.i walked alone in the morning when I would go to school and I would came back alone.no one even tried to talk to me or try even walking on my lane.the more I was alone the more I started thinking and thinking.until I felt like we were two in my brain.
Sometimes I would ask myself a question and I would get a response, sometimes I would be looking in the mirror and imagine that there was another me on the other side starring at me,then we would normally laugh.i loved it when we would laugh.its made me feel like I had a friend,like I could also feel like everyone else.
I was happy for a while there,in my own little world,which consisted of myself and I.I felt like for me it's was way better,I could communicate with my other half without anyone hearing us.we would giggle together and no one would know.
Until she started wanting to be noticed,she wanted to be just the same as I was visible and more capable.she wanted to be more impactful.she wanted revenge for us.she was more short tempered,she was more angry, anything tricked her, anything made her to act.first I assumed she was joking.