She believed my lies and I was relieved.I did not want to tell mother about my day because I did not want to stress her.she was already having alot on her plate.
Just as I was starting to relax she brought up the topic I had told her about earlier.I felt silly as my brothers laughed at me.They called me childish because I was still believing in ghosts.I was frustrated hence I opted to depart from their presence in an aggressive manner, straight in to my room,I slapped the door as I portrayed my frustration as mother was yelling at me.
I dropped down as I cried.I was so sad,not just because my brothers were laughing at me cause I was already used to their behaviour but I cried because my day had not been good at all and it's wasn't a matter of just a day but days which have drained me in chronological order.
After such a long time of being bullied,I was tired ,I finally had enough.I was in desperate need of intervention in my life inorder for me to feel whole again.I assumed that as I was in a scary situation earlier I would finally get some support.
I cried myself to sleep,on the floor which had pink carpet that my parents had bought for me when I turned five.no matter how much my mother knocked the door on that night I did not give her my attention.she finally went to her room and slept.
While everyone was sleeping,snoring and probably dreaming.I started to feel like I wanted to use the toilet .I quickly rushed to the toilet and came back in order for me to continue with my sleep.
I jumped on the bed and as I was fixing it,I could feel like someone was staring at me,as if I wasn't alone.my hair stood still.At first I did not want to look back but the thought of me being laughed at because I believed in ghosts gave me courage to look back as I hoped that it's was nothing at all.
Nina was there.she looked at me as I tried to pretend like I wasn't shocked at all.I was shivering deep inside my blankets.oh I wanted to run,but how since she stood right by the door as if she was hinding behind it the whole time.i thought of jumping through the window but the thought of people seeing me and mom knowing, I'd be finally considered a lunatic.
I had no choice but to stare back at her in hope that she would spare me.I was already praying my last prayer even though it's was not making sense but it's was worth a try.i decided that it's was better to be safe than sorry.
It's was like I had triggered her because that was when she finally talked to me.'hey stop it,I see that you have alot on you but I am here for you.im here to help you 'she said.i did not know what to say because I became even more surprised.i began to cast words in prayer hoping she would disappear but she did not.
She looked at me while coming closer and insisted that she is just me and I'm the only one to see her because I was her and she was me.she Futher said that she had only came to lend a hand and help me out in my challenges as she was a true friend.
Still she wore the same jumpsuit I had worn that morning whilst I wore the opposite.The thought of having a friend made me feel comfortable though the situation seemed very scary for me.
Nina vowed that she would give me confidence in order for us to make it through our battles.As scarry as it was I felt forced to agree to nina ideas because I felt like that was the only way I could win over my bullies.The fact that I was also very much frightened became the reason behind me agreeing to let Nina in to my life.
From that time I had hope on Nina.The following day Nina went with me to school.she sat where there was space in the car.and we headed to school..she would normally just whisper on my ears what ever thought she had on particular topics.no one saw her no one hearted her.
When mother saw me she thought that I was to be rude towards her because of what happened the night before but instead I was smiling and making my way to the car.
I never smiled or laughed around my family or anyone.i was always the black sheep wether it's was home or school hence it's affected my self esteem.
I felt like there was absolutely nothing to laugh about.nothing was fun or funny about my life but rather depressing.as young as I was ,my life was supposed to be full of butterflies and fairies.
Besides my mother who was an elder ,I was definitely the only girl around,hence I felt very much isolated..my mother would try to slcheer me up whenever she was around but it was totally not worth it .
Having Nina around made me feel like I had a sister and a friend.i was never alone.