Thane
When the woman had entered the room. I could see the shock on her face, she quickly left the room. I had not planned for it to end up this way. I just wanted to put up an act in front of her but I did not feel right. I wanted her to feel my pain but I had the urge to explain myself.
I pushed the woman aside and I followed peace, she walking very fast so I had to run to catch up with her.
But when I had questioned her, the words
I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE clanged in my ears like a bell. I could not believe it, I was surprise and shocked at the same time. I could not imagine how many days I would restrain myself from going up to her room so that I did not apologize to her, I remembered how I sacrificed staying in the store instead of the master bedroom so that I could give her time to think about her actions.
I had sacrificed a lot so that she could come to the realization that she had been wrong all this while and give me the befitting apology. Promising to never do it again.
But right now she was trying to give up? Why would she, did she think I enjoyed staying apart from her.I knew I had to stay disciplined ad wait till she showed genuine signs of repentance. I had already thought of just forgetting everything and starting over but when I had learnt that she had left to the hospital without my permission to see that man. I knew that I was the fool all along.
" What do you mean Peace?" she closed her eyes, took a deep breath and stared at me through her blood shot eyes.
" Thane, I used to think that you cared about me. I used to think that you loved me and would continue to trust me no matter what comes up but you are so disgusting, immature and self centered"
" Oh so now, I am disgusting. Says the woman who committed aldultry with another man, right under my nose"
" I told you. I told you that I did not do it!" she shouted and then collapsed on the floor. Sitting down on her lower thighs , looking hopelessly at the chandelier and placing her hands on her chest while sobbing bitterly.
My heart skipped, it was like a veil had been uncovered from my eyes when I saw her act that way.
She had lost hair. Her figure became frailer and more bonny, her veins popped out from her forehead and her neck area as she sobbed. I could feel a tear drop from my eyes.
Why did things have to turn out this way.
"we had been married for five years. I never knew that the man I loved so much would cause me to become the most miserable person on earth." She shifted her gaze from the chandelier to my shoes. " I am tired of being treated this way. You have been helping me to live in a lie, I could not enjoy prayers anymore because I felt so guilty, I could not eat because each time I swallowed food, I would realize that my lover thought I was a cheat and I thought I deserved to die. I thought I de-deserved to die" tear drops left her eyes once again.
My hand wanted to move, I wanted to bend down and hold her. I felt like If I did not, I would really loose Peace. I could not bend no matter how hard I tried. Why was peace making me feel like the villain here, I wasn't. I just wanted her to own up to her mistakes. That was the most responsible thing to do.
" Peace.." I said frustrated. I paced back and forth and then I looked at her. " everything will be fine" I knelt down to her position " Just admit that you did it, everything will be fine when you apologise, tell me that you would cut off all ties with Luther and never see him again" I looked into her eyes with eagerness. She was looking blankly at another direction.
" I cannot apologise for what I have not done." Hearing the opposite of what I had wanted to hear after her silence that took an eternity. I stood up and I kicked the stool in anger that was used to anchor glass cups beside the sofa.
I went into the store room which was inside the sitting room and I shut the door and I threw the prostitute that had been at the door listening to our conversation to the bed.
And I held her down on the bed.
" Oh, you are being to rough" she moaned and I could hear peace's tiny hurried footsteps climbing the stair case.
I closed my eyes and I thwarted the lady to the floor. I could not understand why everything was turned upside down. The memories of us being happy and in unity became a dream, I was in reality right now. My reality was a nightmare. The lady got up and massaged my back slowly and sensually.
" Don't be upset, I won't resist you like your shy wife did" the air from my nose were hot as it brushed my lips.
" Get out" I was tired, I told her to leave with my hands in my head. I could still feel her hands and it had irritated me.
She pressed her chest against mine, I could feel that she had nothing on her chest.
Peace was right, why had I brought this woman into our home?
" Get out!!!!" I could feel her trembling as I increased my voice in speech. I sighed.
" You acted well, collect your reward on your way out from Kelvin at the guest house in front."
" Tank you sirrrrrrrrr" she said in a high annoying excited pitch and left the room.
"Baam!"
What do I do? Am I really loosing Peace?